Why I Haven't Been Posting.
If you used to read my posts you probably would have noticed that I used to post regularly, quite often uploading pieces of art or writing once or twice a day. That however quickly died down to me posting every few weeks until eventually I didn’t post for over two months with my most recent post being the 23rd of January this year. In this post I was hoping to explain why I haven’t been posting so here goes, I want this to be structured and informative but I haven’t planned it out so it might be a bit of a mess sorry about that.
So when I first started blogging and using this site to post my work I was really motivated to write and publish stuff and had so many old pieces that I wanted to post, this meant that it was really easy to upload regularly, often I would end up posting a couple things a day. After a while I ended up posting all of my old work and it became harder to keep up with how often I was uploading because whenever I wanted to post I had to write something new. For me writing something whenever I want to post is quite difficult because with the way I write I usually just wait for some form of inspiration to hit me and start writing spontaneously and it makes writing on a schedule rather difficult and tiring. This ended up being really really bad for me because I still wanted to keep up with the super regular uploads so I was frantically trying to write super often, tiring myself out and causing myself to be unmotivated when it came to doing anything at all because it became this thing that I was forcing myself to do and hating instead of just enjoying the fun of it.
The way I’ve gotten myself to put a stop to this was by stopping myself completely and not writing a single thing that wasn’t necessary for school until I could manage it again. This helped in a way by allowing me to relax and regain my energy, but it also didn’t fully help because one of the consequences of my little toxic spiral was that I got some major writer’s block that I’m still struggling with. For now I’m still figuring out how to fix this issue but I’m also slowly incorporating writing back into my life, using small things such as writing a couple sentences a day about how I’m feeling and what my goals for the day are to help me get used to it again.
I’m planning on slowly going to go back to uploading on this account again but it could be a few months or even more before I go back to posting regularly. I also don’t think I’ll ever fully go back to uploading as often as I used to but I’m not so sure about that being a bad thing. Having a decent amount of time between posts will give me more time to do homework and will also make it so that I don’t tire of it so easily. I still might have some off moments where I go on hiatus for a bit so that I can sort myself and my life out a bit but hopefully not to the extreme that happened this time. I’ve also got something quite large planned that will take some time away from my use of this account. Unfortunately I can’t tell you much about that because it’d defeat the purpose of it but maybe later, in a year or so once I’ve finished with that I might tell you about it.